busy busy busy

Long time, no blog. Took my boards today and got a 93 on my state and a 94 on my general. Pretty happy about this. All I have left to do is show up everyday til the 26th and then I'll graduate. Had a job interview a week ago and never heard back until 2 days ago and they want me to come in and do a technical. It'll just be a haircut, but knowing me I'll be super nervous and mess it up. So that's the next big thing I'm worrying about. Also, I am moving out of the house. I am really excited about this, but also a little sad, only because I won't get to see my mommy everyday. Which isn't a huge deal, I'm sure I will go over there all the time and call her everyday anyway. I just need to pack all my shit which isn't a fun thing to think about. Too much shit to pack = stressed Mak.

oh hi, im cyn bolsta

Sorry its been so long, dirty brog. Gots me a boytoy now and I'm still occupied with school so don't have much spare time to write on here. Birthday went great, Jordan sent me reeses and kitkats and dew. Bad idea, pal. She also sent me a celebrity wordfind, and I was pleased to see that there was a Bea Arthur page. I certify on Monday and Tuesday, and I'm getting nervous. I just want to get out of here and I'm almost there. I cannot express into words how much I hate the Model College. But soon it will just be a distant memory, and life will be good once again. I have a job interview Wednesday, and I can't tell if I'm more nervous about certification or the interview. I know I probably won't get it because I'm still in school and duh, I have no experience. Supposed to go see some family tomorrow, hoping I will like everyone that shows up. But what are the chances of that? Ok, totally worthless update but that's all I got.
Oh toooooooooooodles.

blarghsyuexdhsueyfhgffjifuedh

Another day with nothing to do at the Model College. Took all the old quizzes on the computer to study, and aced everyone. Took my laws final about 2 weeks ago, found out I passed with a high C. Didn't even study for that one, I should have, but I am not going to retake it. Wrote my cover letter and about me page now I just need to type it. So literally all I have to do for the next month is just get my ass here. Swipe my time card in, swipe it out. Birthday is one week from today. No plans whatsoever. Mom is making me a thanksgiving feast to celebrate my birth on sunday, pretty excited about that. Also, did you know that if you park somewhere for two hours, then move a block down for forty-five minutes, you'll get a parking ticket? Truth. Ridiculous.

I like the color pink, just not in my eye

So, Pink Eye. That happened.

Got my Dexter Season 4 back from my sistah finally. Already on disc two, holla! Can't go to school tomorrow with a contagious face, they don't want me there and I can't say I feel differently. This week is gonna be a week from hell. Got a funeral/visitation to go to for my aunt. Something good needs to happen this week. Getting kind of sick of college-aged boys hitting on me. I'm not going to fall for your "charm" (although countless other girls have/are) so fuck off. Cheese and spaghettios for supper, gotta go make that so
byyyyyyyyeeeeeeee

if i riseeeeeee

20 days til my birthday, blog. Its been a busy day here at the Model College which is good for my hours, but not for me. I feel like crap, my wisdom teeth are coming in and I feel like a teething baby. Because of my overdose on smarties, I now have like 4 canker sores in my mouth, which I guess I brought on myself. So I was brushing my teeth last night like the uber-hygenic gal I am, and my toothbrush scraped a canker sore. All the sudden my mouth filled up with blood, seriously. My mouth was dripping blood. It was sick. And now we say, "cool story, bro." I wanna go to the movies because I haven't in a while but I don't think there are too many good movies out. I watched 127 Hours finally and holy shit blog, what a good movie. And this has nothing to do with my love for James Franco. They portrayed the story really well, and James did an amazing job! I heard the scene where we cuts his arm off was pretty gruesome, but I didn't find it bad. Maybe because my generation is used to gore thanks to the Saw franchise. And of course, I cried. I knew that would happen, I cried for the last half hour at least. Out of interesting stuff to say again.

oh hey, look! its that one girl with 40 million smarties wrappers on her bedroom floor

The background on my phone right now is the Golden Girls. All I have left to do now at school is my 3rd grade sheet (which is very close to completion) and my MN laws final. I am going to have nothing to do til April, I need to stop being so productive. I bought 2 one-pound bags of smarties at Wally World. First bags almost gone. 4 weeks from today I will be the big 1-9. Pretty underwhelmed about that blog. It seems like a useless age, I'm an 'adult' but I can't drink. There is nothing notable about 19. But I know on the day of my birth I will get to spend it with the people I love and at the place I love, the Model College. Oh wait, I fucking hate that place. Hopefully I can do something cool to celebrate. I need to cut Sir Phil's hairs again, he must be a hairy man. And I will let him borrow my beloved Dexter seasons because he is a friend and also throws my name out in his blog. I can't wait for Sunday! Oscars = James Franco. Yum.

mad about you

Hey brog
Did my taxes. I am getting 4 dollars back, not even enough for taco bell. Soon I will (hopefully) be raking in the dough so I can be out on my own with all of my apartment stuff that has been in storage for over a year. My industrial is healing up pretty well, I'm actually being responsible and taking care of it, yay! I had hamburger helper for lunch, it was DELICIOUSSSSS, I love when my mom makes me food. On my lovely day off on Sunday I played video games cause I'm a cool kid. While I was on my xbox some kid messaged me aaaaannnnnnnnndddddd he was 14. Ewww. Time to get back to work, sorry for the boring post.
BYYYYYYYEEEEE

the very best of hall and oates!

So I actually had a pretty good Valentines Day. Went to the mall with Ashley, had some grub, shopped. I also decided to get an industrial. Always wanted one so I decided to get one. I'm a champ at piercings, this one didn't hurt so bad, but I didn't even have Ashley hold my hand =] got me thinking about a new tatto. So a few days ago I decided to be a little Betty Crocker. Had a knife-in-the-thumb-while-cutting-onions mishap, but the outcome was fucking amazing broccoli and cheddar soup. I felt so proud of myself, and of course I put more cheese in it then asked for because DUH. I like cheese. A lot. Also, whenever I'm bored I read the personals on Craigslist. Holy shit, blog. Pretty high-larious stuff. I got a World of Keflings on my xbox, pretty addicting. I'm about to start season 4 of Dexter again. Oh Michael C. Hall, please come to Minnesota and be into 18 almost 19 year old cosmetology students. Oh well, nothing more from me today.

ahhhhh makayraaaa

Herro Brog.
Its been a while because nothing exciting has happened. Same old shit. I miss having a job, mostly the paycheck, but I know I won't be able to get one til I graduate because I have almost zero time when I'm not in school. Not looking forward to valentines day. It would've been two years, but honestly that isn't even a problem, I just think its a worthless 'holiday' unless you have someone so alas, I am not excited. Finished my second grade sheet and turned it in today. People are certifying at school right now and I know I will be so nervous when that is me in 2 months. The break room smells like tuna. Seckkkkkkk. And now to keep up the tradition of talking about food on each blog post, I will tell you what I'm having for supper. I'm going to Jimmy's Pourhouse in Sauk Rapids motherfucker! Nummmmmmmmm. Bought more games for my xbox finally, I want one of the Saw games because it'll be horrible. Nothing else to say so byyyyyyeeeeeee.

boringgggg

I added up my hours for school today and if I go six days a week without missing a single day, I will graduate on April 11th. This school is driving me crazy and I want to get out of here so bad, but in order to do that I pretty much have to live here. I need a break so bad, but I know if I set my mind to it I can make it through. Started rewatching Dexter last week, done with the first season and about halfway done with the second now. I never get bored of that show. My life isn't very exciting lately, I've realized this.
Until we meet again, blog.

For Phil -

Found out after having my webcam for over a year that you can add mustaches. This is my "Phil" Mustache, just like the one he had when I saw him last. =]

???

So a boy texted me. I got that feeling in my tummy. We were never a couple, but we hung out a few times. I liked him, alot. We did things that I shouldn't have let happen. He turned out to not want me, and that hurt. We stopped talking because I didn't want to be led on anymore. I never felt like I was good enough for this guy, and maybe thats a reason why I was so closed off and hurt that he didn't want me. It's hard for me to talk to him now knowing he's not interested. Out of the blue he texted me about something small, I'm not in the whole drama thing, but I'm so confused, I don't know what to do. Now he's stopped texting me, and I wonder what was his intention in texting me at all? I am so bad with this, I do not know how to pick men.

hmph

Almost at the end of my day here at the Model College. Gave two facials, did makeup and did 4 colors on my mannequin. I'm ready for the day to be over. I'm going to go home and my mommy is gonna make one of my fave meals, sausage and fried potatoes! Nummmmmmmmmmm. I finished the Girl with the Dragon Tattoo yesterday and it was way good like I had heard, I need to go out and buy the next one. It feels good to read again. Two more days here this week, one day off and I'm back here again. If I am a bitch to anyone now/soon it is because of this place and/or my lack of sleep. I found my new favorite snack besides cheese popcorn: dipping mini oreos into strawberry yogurt. I feel like a fatass for always talking about food. Don't have anything else to say, so....

Kbye.

Fucking cheese popcorn

At school today to start another 6 day week. Wrapped a perm and had a haircut in an hour span. So now I am back to my second home, the break room. I packed homemade spinach and artichoke dip that my momma made for lunch. My fingernails and cuticles on my left hand are orange because I ate almost a whole bag of cheese popcorn yesterday. I swear to god there is cocaine in that powdered cheese on the popcorn that keeps me coming back. Tonight Ashley and Nikki are coming over to do my hair and we're gonna go out to eat too. Probably the Pizza Ranch, so they can make fun of me for only getting salad and mashed potatoes. Girl in the breakroom - shut the fuck up. I hate you so much, graduate already. I'm about halfway done reading the Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. I like. Also been playing a lot of Kingdom Hearts II again. I've beaten both of them before, the first one I beat twice so now I'm working on beating the second one for the second time. I wish I wouldve packed some cheese popcorn with me. Damn.

Eww.

One of the clients I had today was 16. He was a smelly emo. He hit on me. A lot. And the fucker didn't even tip me. Gross.

Post Number Two

I recently got a progress report from my school. All my grades were great, I'm getting a lot of things accomplished but my hours are way behind. Anyone who knows me knows how shitty my immune system is. Anytime I get sick it knocks me out of commission for a while. So I've missed quite a few days at school, also because I hate it there sometimes I just can't get myself out of bed knowing I need to spend 8.5 hours there. Anyway, I am now trying my hardest to force myself to go to school 6 days a week. I'm pretty optimistic that I can do it, especially since I don't really have a 'boy' distraction. Which is a totally different subject on its own. I really don't know how to pick men. All the ones I've been in a serious relationship with or the ones I've spent time with have not been right for me. Whenever I fall, I fall way hard. And with not having a good track record with 'men' its a little disheartening. My past relationship I was in for almost two years, and while in it I totally thought he was the one. He was the first guy I really felt understood me, and I could 100% be myself around. But looking back, there were plenty of red flags. For example, I tend to be pretty open and I definitely wear my heart on my sleeve. My ex was the complete opposite of that, he would not express his feelings at all and it was the most frustrating thing in the relationship for me. He was the one to end it, and at the time I was so devastated and heartbroken because I had planned my life around him. I loved his family so much, and his friends. We worked together, so I lost my job outta the breakup too. I felt he left me with nothing, but I realized I should have never opened myself up so much and let a guy in so much. So I became more closed off, which killed another possible relationship from happening. He didn't feel 'a spark' after hanging out for a week. When we were together I could tell I was being very quiet and awkward because I didn't want to let him in too much. What if he didn't like what he saw? So I wasn't being myself with him, and he lost total interest and stopped contacting me. Pretty discouraging, but I know I am a great girl, and it is totally his loss for not giving me another chance to be myself around him. But I am getting closer with my friends and family and I am pushing through life, and I am so unbelievably proud of myself and what I've become, and I know I will find a good guy someday =]

And Here. We. Go.

Alright! Here goes nothing. Maybe people will read this and maybe they won't, doesn't really matter to me. I will preface this with a warning. I have the mouth of a sailor, so if my family reads this, MOM this is my space to vent. If I feel the need to curse, you know I will =].
My life is changing alot, but it is for the better. I should be done with cosmetology school between March and April, hopefully sooner than later. I love doing cosmetology, and I feel pretty confident in my skills. This week I've been sitting on my ass in theory class, topic being anatomy. Why would a cosmetologist need to know about anatomy, right? So haven't got to have too many clients this week. Ashley asked me what we were going to do for my birthday which is 2 months away, and I haven't even thought about how I wanted to ring in the big 1-9. Thinking of shopping, eating and getting a hotel room. And getting druuuuunk =] But who knows, lets see how much money this unemployed lady will have at that point in time. Right now I am going to get off this laptop and play Kingdom Hearts II again.
Night Night, Blog.