boringgggg

I added up my hours for school today and if I go six days a week without missing a single day, I will graduate on April 11th. This school is driving me crazy and I want to get out of here so bad, but in order to do that I pretty much have to live here. I need a break so bad, but I know if I set my mind to it I can make it through. Started rewatching Dexter last week, done with the first season and about halfway done with the second now. I never get bored of that show. My life isn't very exciting lately, I've realized this.
Until we meet again, blog.

For Phil -

Found out after having my webcam for over a year that you can add mustaches. This is my "Phil" Mustache, just like the one he had when I saw him last. =]

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So a boy texted me. I got that feeling in my tummy. We were never a couple, but we hung out a few times. I liked him, alot. We did things that I shouldn't have let happen. He turned out to not want me, and that hurt. We stopped talking because I didn't want to be led on anymore. I never felt like I was good enough for this guy, and maybe thats a reason why I was so closed off and hurt that he didn't want me. It's hard for me to talk to him now knowing he's not interested. Out of the blue he texted me about something small, I'm not in the whole drama thing, but I'm so confused, I don't know what to do. Now he's stopped texting me, and I wonder what was his intention in texting me at all? I am so bad with this, I do not know how to pick men.

hmph

Almost at the end of my day here at the Model College. Gave two facials, did makeup and did 4 colors on my mannequin. I'm ready for the day to be over. I'm going to go home and my mommy is gonna make one of my fave meals, sausage and fried potatoes! Nummmmmmmmmmm. I finished the Girl with the Dragon Tattoo yesterday and it was way good like I had heard, I need to go out and buy the next one. It feels good to read again. Two more days here this week, one day off and I'm back here again. If I am a bitch to anyone now/soon it is because of this place and/or my lack of sleep. I found my new favorite snack besides cheese popcorn: dipping mini oreos into strawberry yogurt. I feel like a fatass for always talking about food. Don't have anything else to say, so....

Kbye.

Fucking cheese popcorn

At school today to start another 6 day week. Wrapped a perm and had a haircut in an hour span. So now I am back to my second home, the break room. I packed homemade spinach and artichoke dip that my momma made for lunch. My fingernails and cuticles on my left hand are orange because I ate almost a whole bag of cheese popcorn yesterday. I swear to god there is cocaine in that powdered cheese on the popcorn that keeps me coming back. Tonight Ashley and Nikki are coming over to do my hair and we're gonna go out to eat too. Probably the Pizza Ranch, so they can make fun of me for only getting salad and mashed potatoes. Girl in the breakroom - shut the fuck up. I hate you so much, graduate already. I'm about halfway done reading the Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. I like. Also been playing a lot of Kingdom Hearts II again. I've beaten both of them before, the first one I beat twice so now I'm working on beating the second one for the second time. I wish I wouldve packed some cheese popcorn with me. Damn.

Eww.

One of the clients I had today was 16. He was a smelly emo. He hit on me. A lot. And the fucker didn't even tip me. Gross.

Post Number Two

I recently got a progress report from my school. All my grades were great, I'm getting a lot of things accomplished but my hours are way behind. Anyone who knows me knows how shitty my immune system is. Anytime I get sick it knocks me out of commission for a while. So I've missed quite a few days at school, also because I hate it there sometimes I just can't get myself out of bed knowing I need to spend 8.5 hours there. Anyway, I am now trying my hardest to force myself to go to school 6 days a week. I'm pretty optimistic that I can do it, especially since I don't really have a 'boy' distraction. Which is a totally different subject on its own. I really don't know how to pick men. All the ones I've been in a serious relationship with or the ones I've spent time with have not been right for me. Whenever I fall, I fall way hard. And with not having a good track record with 'men' its a little disheartening. My past relationship I was in for almost two years, and while in it I totally thought he was the one. He was the first guy I really felt understood me, and I could 100% be myself around. But looking back, there were plenty of red flags. For example, I tend to be pretty open and I definitely wear my heart on my sleeve. My ex was the complete opposite of that, he would not express his feelings at all and it was the most frustrating thing in the relationship for me. He was the one to end it, and at the time I was so devastated and heartbroken because I had planned my life around him. I loved his family so much, and his friends. We worked together, so I lost my job outta the breakup too. I felt he left me with nothing, but I realized I should have never opened myself up so much and let a guy in so much. So I became more closed off, which killed another possible relationship from happening. He didn't feel 'a spark' after hanging out for a week. When we were together I could tell I was being very quiet and awkward because I didn't want to let him in too much. What if he didn't like what he saw? So I wasn't being myself with him, and he lost total interest and stopped contacting me. Pretty discouraging, but I know I am a great girl, and it is totally his loss for not giving me another chance to be myself around him. But I am getting closer with my friends and family and I am pushing through life, and I am so unbelievably proud of myself and what I've become, and I know I will find a good guy someday =]

And Here. We. Go.

Alright! Here goes nothing. Maybe people will read this and maybe they won't, doesn't really matter to me. I will preface this with a warning. I have the mouth of a sailor, so if my family reads this, MOM this is my space to vent. If I feel the need to curse, you know I will =].
My life is changing alot, but it is for the better. I should be done with cosmetology school between March and April, hopefully sooner than later. I love doing cosmetology, and I feel pretty confident in my skills. This week I've been sitting on my ass in theory class, topic being anatomy. Why would a cosmetologist need to know about anatomy, right? So haven't got to have too many clients this week. Ashley asked me what we were going to do for my birthday which is 2 months away, and I haven't even thought about how I wanted to ring in the big 1-9. Thinking of shopping, eating and getting a hotel room. And getting druuuuunk =] But who knows, lets see how much money this unemployed lady will have at that point in time. Right now I am going to get off this laptop and play Kingdom Hearts II again.
Night Night, Blog.